December 2010
2 posts
Day 1
Ten Things You Wanted/Want To Be When You’re Older
1. Ambassador
2. President of the United States
3. Civil Engineer/ Green Design Architect
4. Fashion Designer
5. Writer/ Author
6. Senator
7. Founder of a big NGO
8. Founder of a Fortune 500 company
9. Hobo (back in the day)
10. Professional Manga drawer
Random 10 Day Challenge
Kinda stolen from Allen. I haven’t used Tumblr in a long time, perhaps seeing people do this challenge will motivate me to do it too
heckyeahtumblrchallenges:
Day 1: Ten Things You Wanted/Want To Be When You’re Older
Day 2: Nine Things You Can’t Live Without
Day 3: Eight Places You Want To Visit
Day 4: Seven People Who Inspire You, and Why?
Day 5: Six of Your Favorite Books
Day 6: Five...
October 2010
6 posts
Simplicity, constraints, community
If you can do it in africa you can do it anywhere - google, other companies should learn and invest.
Why doesn’t everyone know? Jump? Scream? Use africa as a training camp for the new development future?
Harvard - funds projects on poverty (engineering school, school of design)
Research
Should be planning for winter break…
I have a prospectus to write and the girls down the hall are drinking. My k-pop is not loud enough to block them off.
The door is ringing like crazy :(
Love love love
I can’t get the url but google chillout song by zefrank
I like it
Blackberry
So there is a blackberry app on tumblr, I might just use this more often now, should be getting back to reading hope everyone is doing well :)
April 2010
4 posts
Starting Anew
I don’t understand this world
there are so many things to complain about and worry about that aren’t purely true
- Not having friends that care about me and keep track of me
- Not having people to socialize with (here)
- Being afraid that I’m a complete loner
- Not doing the best I can in my classes
- Flaking on events and activities that I should care about
- Not doing...
Lady
My dog has passed away
:(
I don’t know which to feel more sad about, that my dog is gone and won’t be there when I come back or that my mother is now really alone in the house at all hours of the day.
Sunlight
Spring has finally come and this may sound very silly, but it really does feel like a breath of fresh air. I feel cognitive, perhaps I know it’s going to be over so it’s less stressful. Everything feels more stable and yet unsure. Things come out in a clearer, my feeling seem more justified, there is less doubt and worry and anxiousness in my concentration.
perhaps it’s because...
Being to think
And think about the ways you think. The perceptions you hold and the assumptions you make. your internal argument, founded on personal and learned experiences which shape you perception of logic. That’s right there is not true logic, only the logic we form for ourselves. 1000, years from now there will be different level of logic founded on the traditional, routinized logic we have now. All...
March 2010
4 posts
We
Will be Gripped with Fear until the Moment we Realize we are not Afraid
Stubborness
A grip of fear so strong that you fear even knowing the reasons you are afraid; and you fear the things you may be fearing are childish or that they are things everyone fears. A gripping misery of depression and gloom and despair which made you forever a child fearful of a unexpected person’s touch, paranoid of being left in the dark, for some monster to come and eat you up, for the sight of...
Haven't posted in a while yes,
But now I feel an itch to write and I usually use this blog for myself so it may not seem interesting to you, who ever you are…
I’m not sure even what about. Perhaps a reflection will do, my nails are getting a bit long, I’d like to to type faster but it seems I’m hitting keys, how i didn’t even notice it was a problem. I still don’t know how L takes care of...
Dear Sophia
Don’t be such a kid :)
February 2010
1 post
Everything
He touches either scabs over or hurts me
I think I’ll die from his “love”
January 2010
7 posts
We
Can never move forward through the present unless we have resolved and learned from our past.
Childhood
As we were driving back from dinner today I looked out the window and remembered all the times I would imagine some creature running along side us, trying to imagine something that could keep up with us that’s not only man made, that could go even faster and farther. Then I realized what it was. Sound, Music.
The way
I deal with challenges I face
Is to ask others how to deal with it
Until I have enough of a sense to do it
How do you get there
People are getting old. I’m getting old, and not getting any closer to having developed reading comprehension, writing and study skills.
But, people can change. New experience change people.
I like working in an office. It feels professional but important and light but not. People are always critical about the task at hand. They complete it effectively
We do not fall into unfortunate...
what's changed this decade →
Revelation of the new Year
You CAN be successful
AND
Happy.
go figure.
Never
Lose Sight of the Big Picture
1 tag
Resolutions
The inner child only grows more and more present when we realize we’ve become adults. For as a child the world was black and white, and gray and there was no rules or order because the world was as the world is, and the world may be. It is only when we grow, that we create distinctions within the world that we live, not holding meaning to these distinctions in themselves but meaning in the...
December 2009
18 posts
Update - Reminding myself that I like Quantity
Skip if you hate reading about people’s small detailed lives. This just makes me feel better about wasting a week/semester on doing things that I maybe I can feel even a little proud about.
Arrived in Oakland midnight on Monday, flight was delayed for an hour, but I busying myself with 100 Years of Solitude
Had period, moody about L, pissed that the airport dunk and donuts ran out of...
friends, boy friends, boys
can’t live with them
can’t live without them
Karma
I’ve always believed that the bad parts of life only existed so we could experience happiness in the better parts of life
Those that are never sad are never really happy but perhaps very content
That’s why when I’m sad I have hope that things will get better
But when I’m happy I’m worried something may happen
Being worried, hoping for something better — this...
Is it wrong
That I still love him? Even though I don’t love myself, or he himself so that we can probably not right now, love each other fully?
I shall not escape reality
I can not give you
the answers to your life
and I can not forgive you
Only god can
We've accepted each other for who we are
Only to realize that we didn’t like what we were showing
Because we didn’t like ourselves (except I’ve come to terms with my dislike as a way to motivate myself, and you’ve come to terms with your dislike by hiding in a dream)
But we could no longer live in the dream that was built between us
There are two paths we can go now:
To part and find those that will inspire us...
Tensions of perfection
I’ve been thinking about it alot. Why am I not attracted to L as I have been to other guys and I think I figured out why.
This is a general concern only thought about because in our last few sessions I’m always worried about him, and not myself. Perhaps it will be resolved, I hope it is
He’s like my best friend - Liz (they were born in the same month)
He doesn’t inspire...
Love love love
too much love
God
I love him so much.
I hope you're ok
Because I care about you a lot
<3
I'm surprised though
It makes much more sense to me now, I was afraid to tell you I didn’t buy anything you were saying or doing because I don’t trust you but I didn’t want you to run away because (and I’m surprised at myself that)
I miss you
I love hearing your breath, your voice
I think you’re cute, your imperfections are sincerely charming
I care about you as a friend first
You...
I am
Not someone you’re suppose to love
I need to understand
It seems since I’ve been here that my arguments, my opinions, my whims are not enough as persuasive articulation to describe my actions but I need to step back and actually say what I feel and not be afraid of what people will say against it because they always do (even my mother)
I like him, I love him, I do not trust him
And I don’t want to be pressured to make the choice of seeing...
I can't go back now
Or at least he said so. I don’t really believe anything he says just because it’s really not in my personality to accept reality anyway.
Things are going well, he’s right, my mum’s right, I don’t have to worry about anything, I mean i can worry, but worry a little and then let it go - moving on is something I’ve been having a problem with because thinking makes...
I can't put my finger on it
IS this Love?
When you miss someone you just saw yesterday so much your heart hurts,
When the air and the wind remind you of his touch
When you have things he gave you and can’t stop using them, thinking of him
When you go on a wonderful date and all you wanted to do was be around him (succcchhhhh good dates, we went ice skating, and walked around and got desert too, now he’s going...
Feeling Connected...the superficial?
I’ve been lucky in seeing people I know everywhere these days on passing:
Pfoho dining hall - Jackson
Lamont - Wilson
Fly By - Ryan, Julia, Courtney, Arturo
Dining Hall - Brandon, Weina, Detric
Barker Center - Alex
Ec 10 Lecture - Katie, Maya
From Qudditch Practice - Song
At Breakfast - Adrian
Lamont circulation desk - Caroline
Gmail Chat - (5am) Rebecca
Thanksgiving break - Yumi,...
Feeling Connected
In all and all a lot as passed these last few weeks
But I wonder
If I feel vested in the world now because it
I actually prayed to God one of those vague days to send me a sign make me feel like everything that happens in my life has meaning again, that every movement I make makes a difference, that ever person I talk to and meet impacts the way the world works. For the past year I have events...
November 2009
15 posts
I like him
And now I’m not as terrified to show it
All I have to worry about now is trying to get him to show that he likes me back because I don’t really think he does.
But now I don’t care
I did two things I shouldn't have done on...
I drank alcohol
And I ate Meat
*shock*
Please don’t burn my soul, I won’t do it again, I swear!
Thoughts of Thanks
This looks like it’ll be a good thanksgiving. I slept yesterday from 4pm to 11pm, woke up and talked to my mum and then fell asleep at 4am till 9am, very disoriented. I can’t believe I missed my chance to get books from the library though =(
Feeling lonely, but thankful for the holiday I decide to procrastinate with videos and facebook stalking
I start running through my Cell-phone...
This Semester has been horrible
awful
I’ll be glad when it’s done. I’m pretty much ready to turn in everything half ass’ed at this point. My GPA is going to hell and I’ll probably get a C in Spanish, the one class that was suppose to be easy.
But if it’s one progression for the year: it’s nice to have someone who you know likes to be around you <3
My insecurities (some) melt away,...
Is it pure? Is it True?
So he half confessed but the cat’s out of the bag now, we like each other, awww
But part of what I feared has already happened: I’m seeing him as a guy instead of a good friend and I’m talking less, worried of what I’ll say instead of saying what I want, thinking of what he’ll think
Here’s what happened.
I’ve been dying for the past week after his...
I Think I'm in love
It kinda hurts
post confession
why does he always do this?
i think i’m dieing
this is so bad for my heart
why do i feel like i hurt him?
Painfully Aware
Of how unkind I am.
I wonder if I’ve always been so rude now. I can take almost any example now and just wonder, what’s going on in my head that I would say that? I called Gabby Childish, I didn’t say sorry, can you cancel that ticket? I just demanded cancel that, or the cab driver or to L when they do something nice. Why is my first reaction to snap? To counter? To assume that...