This Semester has been horrible
awful
I’ll be glad when it’s done. I’m pretty much ready to turn in everything half ass’ed at this point. My GPA is going to hell and I’ll probably get a C in Spanish, the one class that was suppose to be easy.
But if it’s one progression for the year: it’s nice to have someone who you know likes to be around you <3
My insecurities (some) melt away, and it’s so comfortable to be by him, to hold his hand, to say things that don’t make sense anymore, I’d almost wish he would point them out instead of laugh at everything. Plus he’s rich. gold digger much?
Insecurities still? I feel like I’m walking on a well trodden path, he’s had 12 girl friends before and I want to know more about them, so I don’t end up like them, actually I don’t really care how they were so much as how he treated them. There is something mentally going on when you have that many girl friends. It’s like you’re looking for something and just not finding it, time and time again. What about me?
On the flip side it’s nice interacting with someone with experience because he’s pretty much willing to do anything, and knowing that, he’s always asking me what I want to do. Sometimes I wonder if you want to do it too though, because sometimes I wonder if we’re even attracted to each other or if we just fit really well.
I’m not hot, but neither is he…
Oh well, I’ll find out.
Another point though that I have to get off my chest, while we were talking and walking around I mentioned S a lot, because well, it’s always been the 3 of us like all good movies and novels, it’s either 2 guys and a girl or 2 girls and a guy. Well this is like when Hermione realized she could never get Harry and settled for Ron. Ron is awesome, but during this time Harry feels like shit. And I don’t think they’re a Ginny in the picture anytime soon. I can already feel the distancing of friendship, wait you know scrap that he’s always been like this. I don’t think a girl will fix his problem though.
I don’t think any relationship can fix anything having to do with the individual.
hmmmmmmm I don’t think L is attracted to me, but even if we’re just settling for each other, and we find other people some day, right now it’s nice.
