Resolutions
The inner child only grows more and more present when we realize we’ve become adults. For as a child the world was black and white, and gray and there was no rules or order because the world was as the world is, and the world may be. It is only when we grow, that we create distinctions within the world that we live, not holding meaning to these distinctions in themselves but meaning in the motivation to distinguish them.
The world is always whole, it is us who in our attempt to understand it, divide it to joints that reflect differences in views, to cells which floats amongst each other as if without aim, to wars.
We are all children. Today, I mark the day that I realize that I have not been dying, existing, rejecting my self, but that I am here, there, wherever, hugging tightly, and not bounded by this world. Today I accept that I have been lost, alone, without anyone to understand me, and not to reject this notion but for today is the day not to salvage that which I thought I lost but to forge what is yet to be understood. I must not let my thoughts run in all the directions that the world does but to cut into it like a beam, bring chaos or order. It is only but a fraction of this world anyway, but for me, yes, it will be my world.
From my Planning Sheet
Learn more Chinese
Do not make Excuses
Keep your back Straight - Have Confidence
Whiten teeth, and Nails
Maintain Weight but Eat Healthy
Have sorted out 40 hours of class work a week
Always prioritize long term goals and classes
Become a better Public Speaker
Get everything off your chest for the day
Don’t question a good thing - what would Pooja do
Work on Homework but take 5 min breaks ever hr
Do not sleep more than 6~7 hours
For my New Self
- Meditation and Inner Peace brought by Daily exercise of connection with my Body (heal my heart, love my body) - taught by my new teacher
- Focus on the tasks at hand, always think of possible solutions, systems of thought able to explain to a 12 year old
- See progress and articulate what is learned
- Explore engineering, math, economics, and physics
- Prioritize with long term goals
- Emulate
Long Term Goals
I thought I would be dead before 30, the goal was always college. What do I want of my life now? I want to be successful so that I can be proud of myself. I want to help people, but for these next 10 years I want to be strong enough to help as many as I can. I want to be effective when that time is up so people can be proud of themselves. Yet until then I will continue to help people one by one. Readers, do not forget the impact you have on a day to day basis.
